Before The Creamy Crack.Prt1 PicHeavy

I Miss My COLOR!!!

Nevermind the faces.LMAO.. This was WAAAY Back..Just to get an idea of what Iam rambling about.

I was natural for 17 years

I wore my hair with the..old fashion press & curl

&

Twist & cornrows & braids sometimes

I have been relaxed for a short time

For ME.. The Bennifits dont outway the cons

I miss my hair

I miss my color

Iam going Back.

Mini Beauty Haul: HairCare

100th Post! YaY!

So Ive been going through with this hair of mine.lls.For the last few months my hair has been sheeding and breaking like hell (yes I know the diference). OMG. Like WTF. not cool. So I remembered that Garlic does help with shedding so I picked up some Queen Heleen Garlic Shampoo to test it out. They had the conditioner too but Im so indecisive so I just left it there.

I also picked up some TRESemme' heat protectant spray. I heard about it before but never really looked into to getting it. I figured why not? When you use any kind of heat on your head you need to use a protectant. I use the Chi Silk infusion already. Im not sure if it doubles s a protectant but whatever...Im steppng my game up.



& last but not least.. This was a random try. I know my hair loves/ feels at best with moisture rather than protien so Iam always on a look out for somwthing better than before. I LOVE LOVE Cream of Nature Products. My hair is the softest thing ever with it. I have been using that since the womb! But I decided to try the Aussie Moist conditioner. IDK about this one yet.I'll have to let you know.




The next few Post will most likely be on hair & shopping! I am comming back into myself and I gotta do it my way....sooo (more on that in a few.lol)

Too Much For Me To Deal.

& they say God will never give yot TOO much...more than you can Bear.

I sometimes Wish he didnt believe in me soo Much.

Get out the WAY!!

.Looking in the Mirror..Realizing IAM the only one standing in MY way.

So I say to myself..

"Self...what are you doing...MOVE..Get THEE fck out of MYWAY"

Scratch List.?!.

Lacy Monroe.

I'd say about January, I made a list.

The list was comprised of some things that I wanted to accomplish by the end of 2010.

Some spiritual.

Some materialistic.

Some sexual.

Some of everything.

So far, Ive moved pretty far & quick down my list.

I made a note to:

Let only what you can control be on the list.

For you shall except the things you can not change.

Place them in God's hands.

I long ago learned that..things and money can only bring temporary happiness. I was reminded of this principle after I checked off each accomplishment. It would bring me joy only for a while..then I was back feeling like I was stuck and not going anywhere.
I like my little list and it brings me some comfort to know that I'm moving forward but I'm wondering..where does it end?

Pain is Love.

Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

So umm where the fck do people get the notion that Pain is Love. I dont see that nowhere.

If Love Hurts... It Cant Work

Deeper as IT GROWS.

This Love is Deeper than anything I could imagine.

Deeper than I bargained for.

I accept who I am to you.

I accept who you are to me.

But IF&WHEN..that man comes

Who isn't afraid & is understanding

I will not pause

For I am I lover

Not that half assed shyt.

If You cant handle..Since you arent ready

I Decree

The next one will BE

Hey!

I wonder have you guys even missed me....Hmmm??

I HAVE YET to do a Giveaway because I do not know what you guys want..sooo if you want one.. I suggest you speak UP!.lls

As usual, soo much is going on in my life at the moment that Ive not been blogging. Oh well...In a few weeks, I will be back to normal..whatever the heck normal is...

& i fall..again

"When our guys act up and we still choose to deal with them, have sex with them, cater to them, and allow them access to our heart, we aren't sending the message that we love them and down for whatever... we are sending a message that we stand for nothing and will allow anything..."--Keenya

* I had to borrow this quote from one of my favorite blogs( she borrowed) it too... So I log on here for the 1st time in a week and some change and this is what I 1st see...wtf

& I keep questioning why words like these keep knocking me upside that head? Everyday or so something comes up that has to do with my relationship. It gets to the point where I'm like WTF is going on here? I'm SO fucking sick of this thing we got going on here. I feel like a broken record for Gods sake.

& I cant figure out why when it comes to him that I loose my balls. I keep myself in the situation. Seeing the other girls on a daily.Smiling in my damn face. My friends don't know how I do it. keeping it 100. Knowing what and who he's doing. Then I had the nerve to slip up and give in to my desire and give it to him.Afterwards feeling so disappointed in my self.I know damn well that the easy way out would not be to just up and walk away because that's hard as hell..BUT its been nine damn months...enough to cook a baby.

Life...Im Back??

Have you Missed Me??

Umm soo not much has changed since my last post. Actually thats a lie but.. umm. IDK.. I have been super busy. Like its crazy.Just trying to stay a float really.My mind is cloudy. I want some dick but my heart says fuck a dick..they leave you fucked up.I want to blog my ass off but I cant just yet. I will update soon. Ill be away this weekend but I will be back.