RiGHT.

If he isn't treating you R I G H T

Then he deserves to be L E F T

..Liife.

Torn & Confused

Waisted & Used

.

I GET Lonely too.

Ever felt soo lonely in a room full of people & got a phone full of contacts & got endless bodies but the ONE you LOVE is too busy loving someone ELSE??

IDK..hurts

I gave it all to you because I thought we'd be forever inLove

That crazy no one can love me better Love.



Couldn't tell me nothing & you couldn't do no wrong.

If only I could have seen the Bullshyt all along.


Just a minute..




There's no way I could blame this all on you.

I stayed to play "good wife" but was really the "fool".



You see..when you came into my life

I was a hopeless little girl, who had everything in the world...

Still lost and unhappy

Depressesd and you found me...



The wholetime we both knew something wasnt right,

we continued to fight, for the idea of being inLove.



Stuck around long after it came crashing down,

scared the pain of being w/o you would hurt more than the pain of being w/ you...



If only I knew..



It was an accident...We

Never meant to say Ilove you...

Never meant to fall inLove...

Maybe I could have saved myself the heart ache..but Im two years too late.

InLove With the D**ck

TO Be inLOVE with the D**ck

&

Cant Stand That Ass!

Feling Like Such a whore aren't YOU?

That's College for that ASS!

&

Loving EVERY Minute of it while watching the ONE YOU LOVE replace YOU!

DAMN.

Under Massive Attack.

Ever feel like your Character was under Attack??

Like people have to find a reason to dislike you??

Reasons that are minimum.

Reasons that they can't really explain.

This is how my 2011 has started off.

SO

What do I do?

my usual..I shut down

Human Hibernation

Disable my Facebook.Delete Twitter App

Write in my journal More.

Sometimes I feel its wrong

Like Im allowing people to get me out of character.

To fuck with Lacy.

IDK at this moment

UnderConstruction-Revamp 2011

So I wanna take my Blog to new Levels..
I want to regroup/expand. .
I know I have a lot to say & great writing skills..
2011 will be that year.
I will began to erase the more "personal" post concerning my ex-boyfriend.
I want to close that chapeter in my life as much as possible.
Its hard because we go to school together BUT Ive got to do it.
SOOOO between now & the end of the week.. read up on whatever you'd like because a lot of it will be gone!!
Time to open up a new chapter...LacyMonroe

Humbug.

So I'm guessing this is why I have not been able to blog....SCHOOL..you gotta love it!

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Fall.

I need to find time to blog.

Not Gone.

Lacy Monroe.I have not gone ANYWHERE.... I have just been stupid busy!

JadedxSoul will be back in action soon!

Haha B!tch.

When I finished my letter to my Ex. I realized that this was never intended for him. He did not need to even see this. The letter was for me to vent & let go. I felt so much better. I feel soo much better.

FUCK YOUR CHAMP ASS!

. Let me not be rude because no matter what. I am a respectful young lady.

But

I dont really give a damn. Through writing my thoughts and feeling down, I gained a better understanding as to why I was/am soo fixated on a nigga who brought me soo much pain. I rather not say why becuase that shyt is just too personal but in a nut shell, it was a depression/ self-esteem issue that spiraled out of control.

I have identified when & why I lost myself for a while

It seems as if it took him comming in & fucking up shyt..with my self-esteem plumiting..depression out of control.. for me to come out of it

Like on some real shit. I hit damn near rock bottom.

Not just over a nigga

But in general

There's a Smile on my face now!!!

Haha Bitch.lol

This kinda pain is so unusual.

Iknow better than to run from how I Feel

It's not always about how I feel but what I deserve.

HELLO OUT THERE!!

..Ugh I've been gone waayyy too long. On this college thing....VERY time consuming if I say so myself. I already had my phone stolen. Sticky fingerd motherfuckers. I gotta replacement though. I really dont know what else to say. I dont want to neglect my blog in this way anymore but I wonder if people are even reading this?? HELLO OUT THERE!!

I guess I gotta get into the mood to write again. Im in the process of writing a letter that for that old someone( read the relationships label if you dont know what the hell im talkin about). IDK if Im actually going to give it to him yet. Im not sure if Im going to put it on here either, Unless your interested.I feel like its part of this lonnng ass process of growth.


For those of you that actually read my Blog, comment and let me know that you do. Let me know what you want to see more of or something you want me to touch on.

Back2School

Ughh. I have been seriously neglecting my blog! This back to college stuff is soo getting on my nerves...Hmph.

Far Away From Here

...I wanna go to a place where LOVERS go.Do the things that lovers do...Far away from here..

Too Much For Me To Deal.

& they say God will never give yot TOO much...more than you can Bear.

I sometimes Wish he didnt believe in me soo Much.

Get out the WAY!!

.Looking in the Mirror..Realizing IAM the only one standing in MY way.

So I say to myself..

"Self...what are you doing...MOVE..Get THEE fck out of MYWAY"

Scratch List.?!.

Lacy Monroe.

I'd say about January, I made a list.

The list was comprised of some things that I wanted to accomplish by the end of 2010.

Some spiritual.

Some materialistic.

Some sexual.

Some of everything.

So far, Ive moved pretty far & quick down my list.

I made a note to:

Let only what you can control be on the list.

For you shall except the things you can not change.

Place them in God's hands.

I long ago learned that..things and money can only bring temporary happiness. I was reminded of this principle after I checked off each accomplishment. It would bring me joy only for a while..then I was back feeling like I was stuck and not going anywhere.
I like my little list and it brings me some comfort to know that I'm moving forward but I'm wondering..where does it end?

Pain is Love.

Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

So umm where the fck do people get the notion that Pain is Love. I dont see that nowhere.

If Love Hurts... It Cant Work

Deeper as IT GROWS.

This Love is Deeper than anything I could imagine.

Deeper than I bargained for.

I accept who I am to you.

I accept who you are to me.

But IF&WHEN..that man comes

Who isn't afraid & is understanding

I will not pause

For I am I lover

Not that half assed shyt.

If You cant handle..Since you arent ready

I Decree

The next one will BE