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23.6.10

Get out the WAY!!

.Looking in the Mirror..Realizing IAM the only one standing in MY way.

So I say to myself..

"Self...what are you doing...MOVE..Get THEE fck out of MYWAY"

8.6.10

Scratch List.?!.

Lacy Monroe.

I'd say about January, I made a list.

The list was comprised of some things that I wanted to accomplish by the end of 2010.

Some spiritual.

Some materialistic.

Some sexual.

Some of everything.

So far, Ive moved pretty far & quick down my list.

I made a note to:

Let only what you can control be on the list.

For you shall except the things you can not change.

Place them in God's hands.

I long ago learned that..things and money can only bring temporary happiness. I was reminded of this principle after I checked off each accomplishment. It would bring me joy only for a while..then I was back feeling like I was stuck and not going anywhere.
I like my little list and it brings me some comfort to know that I'm moving forward but I'm wondering..where does it end?

4.6.10

Pain is Love.

Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

So umm where the fck do people get the notion that Pain is Love. I dont see that nowhere.

If Love Hurts... It Cant Work

31.5.10

Deeper as IT GROWS.

This Love is Deeper than anything I could imagine.

Deeper than I bargained for.

I accept who I am to you.

I accept who you are to me.

But IF&WHEN..that man comes

Who isn't afraid & is understanding

I will not pause

For I am I lover

Not that half assed shyt.

If You cant handle..Since you arent ready

I Decree

The next one will BE

15.5.10

Hey!

I wonder have you guys even missed me....Hmmm??

I HAVE YET to do a Giveaway because I do not know what you guys want..sooo if you want one.. I suggest you speak UP!.lls

As usual, soo much is going on in my life at the moment that Ive not been blogging. Oh well...In a few weeks, I will be back to normal..whatever the heck normal is...

4.5.10

& i fall..again

"When our guys act up and we still choose to deal with them, have sex with them, cater to them, and allow them access to our heart, we aren't sending the message that we love them and down for whatever... we are sending a message that we stand for nothing and will allow anything..."--Keenya

* I had to borrow this quote from one of my favorite blogs( she borrowed) it too... So I log on here for the 1st time in a week and some change and this is what I 1st see...wtf

& I keep questioning why words like these keep knocking me upside that head? Everyday or so something comes up that has to do with my relationship. It gets to the point where I'm like WTF is going on here? I'm SO fucking sick of this thing we got going on here. I feel like a broken record for Gods sake.

& I cant figure out why when it comes to him that I loose my balls. I keep myself in the situation. Seeing the other girls on a daily.Smiling in my damn face. My friends don't know how I do it. keeping it 100. Knowing what and who he's doing. Then I had the nerve to slip up and give in to my desire and give it to him.Afterwards feeling so disappointed in my self.I know damn well that the easy way out would not be to just up and walk away because that's hard as hell..BUT its been nine damn months...enough to cook a baby.

13.4.10

Life...Im Back??

Have you Missed Me??

Umm soo not much has changed since my last post. Actually thats a lie but.. umm. IDK.. I have been super busy. Like its crazy.Just trying to stay a float really.My mind is cloudy. I want some dick but my heart says fuck a dick..they leave you fucked up.I want to blog my ass off but I cant just yet. I will update soon. Ill be away this weekend but I will be back.